'2 way' heart.

situasi di persimpangan dilema.

bagaimana membuat keputusan yang tepat?

macam c hensom Japanese boi d dalam mubie ntah pa tu, yg ada racing-racing kereta..

dia ckp gini..

"Life is simple, we make choice and we never look back"

senang bah maw cakap, tapi susah maw buat..

How to live with no regrets?...

How to live life to the fullest when there is a hole in our heart.

Learn to let go?..

is that easy?

entah.

Hair..again.

i dye my hair 5 times in 2 weeks.,bravo..

me: how are you hair???

hair:owh..i'm exausted..:(

me:sorry..i didnt mean to damage you..

hair: its ok..

me:..why cant i get you to be like what i want...las time i curl you, you cant be curled and in one week, i had to straighten you..yes,damaged badly but you survived to be beautiful shiny thick black hair that everyone was envy with. then this time..i colour you but you was just cannot be evenly coloured. then, i have to colour you black again..how many money that i already give to watson's and hair world salon?.

:(

comforter of the emotion

sometimes, all i need is only hugs, smiles, ears and warm words to make me feel better..

i ain't need comment or opinion about the problems i'm facing..

its the 'understanding' of the people around me that was count the most.

maybe after i'm feelin better that i'm more absorbent to your advises or comment or opinion.

thank you.

my imagination..

i am creating a imaginary scene and situation..

a very beautiful and happy one.

both of you and me..smiling and laughing for happiness.

with beautiful background and surrounding..

to no one else the world was belong to, but us, just us..

i am creating this; because we seldom have one. :(

heart ache

i found out lately that you're not the person that i can tell everything that i want to tell.

i am negative in your eyes.thank you.

my heart are starting to freezing cold..you are not as warm as the old days..you cant melt me anymore.

am i bored??

i felt lonely..no one can comfort me now.

maybe i just realized that i dont need you as what i tell my heart before..

you are busy and you cant find time for me..but you have time for them, them and them.

am i too demand?

i cant even find good memories to remember in my lonely times.

oooo..this is what i feel right now..and who cares what i feel.because no one cares about me.

empty!

i feel empty.

i feel like doing nothing..

jadi cikgu nii mencabar..!

tidak tidur seminggu merancang aktiviti kelas.

jadi sekarang mahu tidur sampai puas.

mungkin tidur seminggu!.haha

ooohh God.

oh God..please change the hatred and sadness in my heart into peace and happiness..

i dont want to hate them for the wound they made..

even if it hurts soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much only i can tell and only God knows.

it hurts me a lot.

it hurts..

it hurts..

it hurts..

God,

U are my good father, and You know the meaning of my tears..

I give it all to You. because only You understands me..

forgive me for my sins.

A sudden RESOLUTION!

I am not too fat..but I won't measure my weight until my ribs appear.ahhhahahahah.

when my T-shirt and Jeans feels loose..then, Mission Accomplish..

All the best huh.

trauma!

tadi petang ada kemalangan depan mata saya..

lebih kurang 10 meter dari tempat saya berdiri.

kereta 'double-cabin' dengan motor.

pembonceng motor terpelanting lebih kurang 5 meter.

kereta sudah semestinya tidak apa2..

pembonceng motor tu balik-balik tengok saya sambil pegang tangan dia yang berdarah..

mungkin patah.

mungkin dia minta pertolongan dari saya.

saya panik.tidak tahu mahu berbuat apa.

seluruh badan bergegar dan jantung pun berdegup kencang.

pemandu kereta turun dan mendapatkan pembonceng motor yang sedang berteriak2 kesakitan.

saya rasa pemandu kereta tu lambat bertindak untuk menghantar orang yang sudah dilanggar itu ke hospital.

lepas tu saya terus jalan dan badan pun masih bergegar.

saya trauma!

masih boleh ingat dengan jelas muka pembonceng motor itu yang kesakitan.

mata yang mengharap untuk ditolong.(mungkin)..

atau wajah dia juga ada sedikit perasaan marah.

saya pun pernah alami situasi yang sama. dan kereta yang dilanggar adalah kereta bapa saya yang kami naiki.

tapi dalam kes saya, 'double cabin' dengan 'double cabin' yang berlanggar...

jadi tidak ada kecederaan yang teruk.

kepala saya ada lah benjol sikit.pandangan saya gelap sekejap semasa terhantuk dinding kereta.

kereta yang melanggar kami tu betul2 langgar bahagian dinding kereta, tempat dimana saya duduk.di tempat duduk belakang,tepi cermin.

kalo pintu kereta bapa saya tidak keras..saya tidak tahu apa yang akan jadi..

kalo boleh agak apa yang jadi pun,cakap dalam hati saja.

kalo itu terjadi,saya belum cukup persediaan lagi..masih perlu bertaubat..

sebab, kalo sudah bersedia dan sudah bertaubat..saya tidak takut lagi.

memang betul lah apa yang selalu disebut.kita tidak tahu bila perkara begini akan terjadi.

Syukur kepada Tuhan sebab Dia memegang dan memelihara saya dan keluarga saya.

kemalangan ni suma berlaku semasa salah satu pihak tu mahu masuk ke simpang.

nampaknya saya betul2 ada trauma dengan simpang 'T'..

saya mahu merancang ambil lesen kereta di masa hadapan..dan sudah semestinya saya mungkin akan berhadapan dengan masalah simpang 'T'.unwanted traumatic.